There has been no other time in my adult life where I have felt more useless. And no, I’m not asking for violins or comments trying to make me feel better. I just want to talk about the difficulty of trying to get out in the workforce after staying at home for 7+ years. This post kind of ties in to one of my older ones: Career of Choice: Professional Mom? https://chalehomeskillet.wordpress.com/2012/02/11/now-that-its/
Job-hunting has been a HUGE eye opener for me. My only reason for going back to work was to try and get us near my family again. I was willing to make tons of sacrifices in order to make that happen; main one was relinquishing my ever loving role of being a stay at home mom. So over the past 3 weeks I have embarked on “hittin’ the pavement” trying to find a decent paying job that has health benefits. How hard could it be, right? In an 8.2% unemployment rate and having minimal work experience to even present on my resume? Talk about having to be pretty darn creative filling up 10 years of experience space! Scentsy April 2011-present. Ok, so I’ve been doing well with it, but I’m sure I’ve given more hiring managers a chuckle or two when they see it on my resume. What in the world was I expecting? Alright, I was at least expecting a job offer below my expectations…but not ZERO. **cue deflated ego balloon**
Here is an email from this morning. About sums up every courtesy email I’ve gotten. haha
So of course it has made me re-evaluate what my goals were before children. After receiving the ever worthless-unless-you-have-a-Master’s-or-want-to-be-a-probation,-parole-or corrections-officer Bachelor’s degree in Criminal Justice. The goal at 22 was to go to Law School and be a badass attorney. Then we chose to start a family after I graduated. My goals for being a lawyer has changed; j ust because I am a damn good arguer (and enjoy winning them) in my personal life doesn’t make me fit for it as a career. Unless there are some lawyers out there who have flexible hours and are allotted time to spend with their families. Ya, didn’t think so.
Now that I’ve had a HUGE reality check these past few weeks, I can’t help but feel like a big, FAT loser…again, not asking for sympathy. I know I’m not truly a LOSER, but when it comes to the answer to this question: What the heck would I do if something happened to Tom? Or if something unexpected happens, like a curve ball in life as it’s been known to happen. I’d be staring at the ceiling pondering what on God’s green earth am I qualified to do in order to support the family. Ok, so we have life insurance as Tom states. But I still need to find a way to make an income that earns more than $10/hour!!
So my solution to all of this: I need to go back to school and get my Master’s. Period. I’ve been contemplating it for YEARS because I always pictured myself having a higher education. However, up until now I haven’t felt that nudge to make it happen. I’m 33 years old in a week which is still young in the whole grand scheme of things. My mom went back to school after the rug was ripped from under her and having teenage girls to take care of. She finished nursing school at 44 and has had the ability to find work anytime, anywhere under some of the most strenuous circumstances. I want that security in myself knowing that if something happened, I would be able to take care of my family if need be.
So I’m going to start slowly since I only have one year left at home with Roman before he starts Kindergarten, and I want that time with him. Once he’s in school, I have to make it a priority to fulfill one of my life’s goals of getting a Master’s. And heck, maybe I won’t stop there. Oprah got her doctorate in her 60’s didn’t she? Although, I’m not sure what “honourary” doctorate means, but I want it dammit! Not really. But I do want to be able to say, “I’m going to get a J-O-B,” and actually get one. haha
PS-I am sharing all of this with you so it puts more pressure on me to make it happen. What’s a better motivator than fear of failure, right? 😉